Molly vom Freunden

My dear, I am so sorry for carelessly caring you that night. You were clever enough to open any snacks on your own, and could make full use of any toys I gave you. You never feared me, not like your buddy Watson, you dared go anywhere in my room and even outside. How come my balcony has a gap at the bottom of the glass walls, that let you fall down at 5th floor high... You must have thought that you would go to another new world through that gap, right? You belong to the nature, the bushes, grasses, but not a prison cage. Though we have been together for only one month, but I put heart on you, care you as my family, wishing every good on you. That day was crazy, sunny and rainy exchanging by turns, with strong wind and high temperature. Sorry for not seeing you the last time at Rosengarten, because at that time my brain was full of your appearance a day ago. I was shocked and shaken while moving your body. I could feel your pain just like it was on my body. Your body crasped inside and was stiff, which made me suddenly burst into tears. Before that moment I was looking for you, with anxiety and expectation at the same time. I feared to see your white body. I thought, if you fell onto the soil and got not seriously hurt, if you go back to the nature and never turn back, it would be also a nice ending for you, and I will pray for all good on you. But if I found your body, which could mean that you were possibly dead. And at last, I found you, lying on those white stones, like you had fallen asleep. My brain was like hit by the lightning, starting breathing heavily cuz I felt so hard to accept the scene in front of my eyes. The rain just fell with strong wind through my shaking body. I couldn't accept it, I couldn't, I thought you fell into the balcony on the fourth floor cuz it's larger than mine, I thought you might be making troubles with my neighbour and I was gonna apologize to her. I thought I was gonna take you home and give you more snacks and water so that you will feel safe and comfortable in my room, I thought……I never, ever, ever thought that you just died like this. I am from eastern country, I don't believe in Christ. But that day I said God's name for a thousand times, wishing you rest in peace in another world, in a heaven with green grass, various food, and large fields for you to explore. I am missing you so much these days, it's been 12 days since you left me. Though you are a male, calling you Molly is because you are like that Molly in BBC Sherlock Holmes TV Series, always with white experimental uniform and nice clean face. And your buddy Watson is named for the same reason. I will take care of him very very well. Hope someday I could see you in my dream, and you can safely run to anywhere you wanna reach. That world must be yours, and I love you three thousand, my baby.